But Can You Feel Me?

funkadelicer:

It got somethin to do with umm
Bein a man and handlin your biz
What love got to do with it
Ask S.V. it’s all bullshit
You know what love is.

I reconnected with one of my oldest and best friends today after not talking to her for about 5 months. I’m horrible with staying in contact,especially now-I’m surprised people actually hit me up still. But when we did finally talk, it was literally like nothings change, just picking up where we last left off. Made me realize how much I missed her. So we made plans and now probably on Tuesday or so, I’m going back to Sam Houston State to hang-I honestly did not see myself going back to my old college ever,never planned on it. I’m excited-to see her and my other peoples though,yaaay.Oh crap, this means I’ma drink too,I haven’t done that in for-fucking-ever.Long overdue. I’m pathetic.

I get a headache just thinking about all the work I have to do. Story of my life,better get started now than waiting til the last minute and really being under pressure. I bullshitted this entire weekend and this is sounding really redundant.Welp, I need to get a move on it now before its 4am and I’m trying to finish another weak ass paper.

(via slaughtermouf)

Tuesday: Right after you get over the Monday blues, you can only hope to believe that the worst has ended. False. This day is like, Monday;The Remix. Not in the middle so it’s nowhere near the glorious weekend. It’s actually a reminder that the weekend just ended. A big ass slap in the face is what it is

-Perfectimperfections

I laughed out loud really hard when I read the part in bold. I needed that,so true:)

Why does mine have to be automatically stapled as black art? I’ve never been a really hard-hitting person on race and art  honestly. Just a way of expression,not politics for myself. So my thoughts might not be as developed, but just a thought.

I was talking to my professor about my portfolio I’m submitting for my F.I.T. application and was telling him how all of my art had a theme- literally all of the people I drew or painted were African American, no other ethnicity. Usually when I begin a new piece, I never just purposely decided, “I’m going to draw/paint a black person and no other ethnicity.“Ha. It just came naturally,with not too much thought, it was never that crucial to me. I pointed out the fact that I did not want to be known as the artist that just does “black people” or whatever, nor be in a subcategory with artwork- I want to broaden my subjects more as well a stepping out of my limits with my art.

But at the same time- either I’m just not aware or informed enough on black artists- but its rare to find black art in my similar style that is not abstract or traditional style african art. Kehinde Wiley stepped out of that norm. I have never really put much thought with race and art- the double standards involved- but then again it can apply to alot. Ex: A white rapper.

For example, Basquiat use to question, “Why do I have to be titled a Black Artist, why can’t my art speak for itself?” But at the same time, most of his pieces were racially and politically charged. Then again, with the message behind it, his art was able to transcend to the masses. Don’t really know where I was going with that point. My thoughts are scatterbrained with this and its kind of tricky to explain.

I create my pieces because I like it and they mean something to me, but I feel my art does need some growth. And that’s not a bad thing either, its evolving in a sense. Right now I’m just at my “enlightening/recognition” stage. Shit,I don’t know. If not now, in time it will.